At 12 months I threw a big old party to celebrate kicking D-bootie.
But something really cool happened between 12 months and 2 years.
Tomorrow is 2 years and I feel like I am me again - a changed me, but me.
The girls and I were listening to the song "For Good" from the Musical "Wicked" and that song reminded me so much of our journey with diabetes:
Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed for good
Don't get me wrong - there are some changes that I would love to be rid of.
I'd love to go back to a time when I could put my daughter to sleep and not worry about her.
I miss sleep.
I'd love to go back to a time where I didn't see a plate of food as one big carb calculation.
I'd love to not see black dots all over Ella's fingertips from finger sticks or rashes all over her skin from infusion sets.
I'd love to never see my daughter almost pass out from a low ever again.